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Voices in my Head
By Laurie | January 24, 2008
Dear God,
Bless this food unto our bodies. Oh wait; you created the fish, cauliflower and bulgur I’m eating, so you’ve already blessed it. So that’d be silly to ask you to bless what you’ve already blessed. Now if I were eating pizza and beer then asked you to bless that; you’d laugh, wouldn’t you? Okay, forget blessing the food.
What I meant to say was that if you could, well I mean, I know you can, you’re God, and you can do anything, so scratch that “if you could”. If it’s your will, please heal my daughter. Wait. Eighty-six that too. Of course healing is your will. You came to give us life, and life to the fullest. Your word says that a healthy body is your will. Ahhhh! This prayer isn’t going so swell, isn’t it Lord?
How about this Father: I want to thank you for looking after us. Please put a special blessing on… geez that sounds stupid too, doesn’t it? All the blessings you put on us are special. Okay, time out. I want to say something here. You know our prayers before we even say them, so why do we even need to pray? Oh my goodness, I can’t believe I just said that … and said that to YOU. Of course it wouldn’t matter who I said it to, you’d hear it anyway. Forgive me. I know why we should pray. You like to communicate with us, right? Yes of course that’s it. Just like I know my kidlets love me, but I still love to hear them tell me.
God I am so distracted! I know you say that we should go into a quiet place and pray. You know that’s not always possible. Certainly not around this blessed zoo! Ok focus, Laurie. You’re talking to God. No one else, don’t worry about the grocery list or the laundry. Pray. God. Father. Abba. Yahweh. You remember: Our Father, who art in heaven …
Regrouping…I know! I got it! I wanted to thank you for taking care of that mouse that I saw scoot under the wash machine. I don’t know where he went but it doesn’t matter. I know that you took care of it for me. You don’t have any idea how much ……ug, I did it again. That was pretty dorky wasn’t it? Of course you have an idea how much that means to me. Seriously God, I really appreciate it. I mean I really appreciate ALL you do for us, and I don’t want to put more weight one blessing over the other, and I really appreciate… ah just forget it, you know what I mean.
So anyway, you know I’m still praying for that husband right? Okay I have a question about that. Your Word tells us to pray without ceasing. We both know it says that. Sometimes I wonder if I keep on, keep on, keep on praying for the same thing, you’ll be like “Yes dear, I heard you, I got it.” I mean it’s like when the girls see all those toy commercials during Christmastime. How many times do I need to hear that Cheeky girl wants a Curly Q doll? I heard her the first and second and third and fifteenth time. Does she think that asking, asking, asking, will make it happen more? Okay, point well taken. Maybe it will. I certainly know beyond a shadow of a doubt that she desires to have that. It must be important to her. I’d love to be able to put that under the tree for her. Her little face will light up brighter than the tree. So on that husband deal … you know that the most important quality is that he’s a godly man. Okay, well d’uh, I can’t imagine that you’d send me a gent whose faith in you isn’t of prime importance.
Is this starting to sound like I’m at the drive-thru at McDonald’s? I’m sorry. I know you are not here to fill all my earthly requests. I adore you. I confess I don’t read your Word as much as I need to. I thank you for my beautiful girls and now I’d like to intercede for others… if that’s okay with you.
Oh, but before I do that, what is up with that ‘Now I lay me down to sleep’ prayer? Doesn’t that bug you? It sure does me. It’s not like anyone is talking to or with you – they’re just reciting a cute little memorized ditty. And why, oh why, would someone want to leave an impression such as “if I die before I wake”? Yeesch, talk about nightmares. Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest.
Now I want to pray for my loved ones…….
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January 24th, 2008 at 22:00
loooooooooooove it! How many times I’ve started to talk to Him and gotten side tracked and off topic then realized He already knows what I’m talking about and then I end up just rambling along with God. Your entry had me rolling though!
Tara